I’ve only done NaNo for two years (this will be my third), but I’m already starting to notice a pattern. Every October my writing output comes to a halt. Even with dozens of ideas bouncing around in my head, producing that mental static I’ve talked about many a time, I can’t bring myself to put it down on paper (or the keyboard). I’m paralyzed by fear that this might be ‘the idea’ that would keep me going through a month-long mad dash of writing, so I don’t start on any.
I understand that NaNoWriMo is mostly about competing with yourself, the rules are only there to build a framework for you to create within. The thing that I know about myself though, is that if I let myself break one arbitrary rule it only becomes that much easier to bend and break others. The result? In order to do NaNoWriMo, I have to really do it, not some mishmash modified version. This means I have to enter into it without any thing written on the story I want to do. So here I am, twenty-two days into October, having written almost nothing and nine more days in which I will most likely write very little more.